You will never be
For that I am sorry
Forgiveness is what I need
But this guilt rests solely on me
You cannot accept my apology

Because…
You will never be
You cannot hear
You cannot see
You simply cannot be

I’ll never hold your precious body in my arms
I’ll never see what or who you would have become

Because…
You will never be
You will never come
You will never know
the Fierceness of hate...it's ugly red glow
nor the Intensity of love....it's beautiful light shows

You will never know because…
You will never be
And this all because of me
For my instability
Doubt. Fear. Selfishness.
Wrong. I was wrong...
What I have done. What have I done?
I was confused
You were helpless
I was scared
You were utterly defenseless
You cannot think
You cannot speak
You cannot be

You will never be
You will never be

You will forever remain in my conscious
Regret, guilt, disappointment...
That is all I feel
When you are on my mind
You won't leave me
But you were never truly here
You will never disappear

You will never discover
A thing
You will never know
A single soul

Light will never enter your  precious eyes
Warmth will never touch your flesh nor fill your heart
Raindrops will never soak your hair nor cover your tears

You will never tumble
You will never tear
You will never bleed
You will never care

You will never be
And this all
Falls upon me
My fault
My decision
My consequence

I will never love you
I will never have the chance
Neither will you with I
You will never exist
You are forever nameless


4/24/05